The Warmth of Familiar Hell

About: Change, I don't necessarily fear it, but I think
I am better off living as I am without ever bettering myself,
as long as I can be alive, even though I know that my current habits can destroy me.

why cant i just stay here
cuddled up in this familiar warmth
rather than being far away from it

you say its for my betterment
but maybe i dont want to be better
maybe i just want to live as i am now

this warmth does have its consequences
but i am ready to take them
"dont bite the hand that feeds you" - they say

so maybe i wont leave it afterall
and maybe you will always find me in this warmth
obliterated, destroyed, and in agony,

the warmth, of familiar hell.

bee.
5th June, 2024