Alleviation

About: Time after time, I come to the realisation of the value of my existence.
"Alleviation" portrays people's nature of using me as a use-and-throw
object in their lives. Keeping me until they need me, and then completely
cutting me off.

i guess im not that important anymore
people change, all the time
but i think i didnt expect this
i never wanted to be their center of attention
but still maybe, somewhere
i think a part of me died

i didnt even want to be important
i guess i went in the flow
and got caught up in the wave
and managed to make myself comfortable
in that bubble of alleviation

but, oh well, does anything ever
go my way? even if luck was on my side
i dont think it could have saved me
from the bubble that burst
alleviation, turned to aggression.

love, turned into a rather bittersweet truth
trust, maybe got cut off an inch
but the fact that they did remove the crushing
weight of existence off of me?
it never changed.

i guess im not that important anymore
i shouldn't be either,
i guess i was just a parasite
trying to feed off of people
to comfort myself, instead of confronting.

bee.
15th May, 24